This is a very impromptu post

December 12, 2011 mommytoaheartkid

This is a very impromptu post.  I just felt like writing, or procrastinating.  I’m supposed to be studying for my psychology final.  I guess that’s what inspired this post, really.

I was looking for ways to procrastinate.  I don’t like this class, and I have not been in the mood to study for this class all semester.  So I have a stack of coupon inserts next to me which I’ve been cutting in between glancing at the pages of my study guide.  I finally printed my study guide 2 days after typing it all out.  And before I printed it, I baked Ava a birthday cake.  It took me 2.5 hours to bake, cut, frost, stack, frost (again) and decorate this cake.

I finally sat down on my bed with my study guide, and I checked my facebook.  There’s a non-heart friend giving birth, there’s babies in the hospital, and there’s many families stressed about the upcoming holidays.  Then I cleaned my desktop.  It’s end of the semester ritual for me.  So I put everything in to their designated folders.  “CHD Related,” “Blog,” “School,” “Pictures,” and “Legislation.”

Today I cleaned.  I went to Hannaford.  I folded and put away laundry.  I watched an episode (or 3) of Gossip Girl.  I fed Ava 3 meals, 2 snacks and got her numerous assorted drinks.  I made sure her hair got brushed, she was dressed, got her ready for bed, and gave her 3 different medicines two times today.

I read emails.  I got an email setting up a time to go look at a duplex this Friday.  I re-read an email from the American Heart Association about a Go Red for Women luncheon I am speaking at in February.  [[Note to self: Start writing your speech SOON.]]

My life is busy.

I remember times when I would get so overwhelmed when I would sit down and compartmentalize my life.  “There’s just too much,” I would think.  It doesn’t freak me out anymore.  This is my life.  CHD, legislation, parenting, studying, school, Dr’s appointments, keeping house, keeping peace, reaching out, shopping, emailing.  Somewhere along the way the neat little boxes I kept everything (separately) in became one huge (yet organized) tote.  I’m okay with that.

P.S.—I mentioned baking Ava a cake.  I can’t believe she’s going to be THREE years old tomorrow!!!  I can still remember labor (when do those memories start to fade?!)  and I can remember being so scared that I would never get to hold my baby.  I’ve held her for 3 years now, and I feel beyond blessed to call her mine.  It’s been 10 months since her Fontan and stroke.  She is brilliant and funny.  She’s recently learned to dress herself, and LOVES helping with laundry.  I can’t believe she’s been here for 3 years.  Time is a funny thing…


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